For a couple of times I wanted to give up blogging, thinking that it's a total waste of my effort, plus the fact that I don't even have the time to blog. But tonight as I read through the posts from years ago to present, I realized the memories I've left behind, the footsteps I've left in my life. I see tears, I see laughter, I see anger, I see love, I see everything that I've been. So no, I'm not leaving this blog behind. I'm bringing you along, to wherever I'm going, to whatever I'm feeling, to whomever I'm meeting.

I was using this paper as a rough paper when i found out the content of it behind. I decided to blog this 'cos I think it was quite an achievement for my OC Presentation.

Sng Yi Xiong

Good preview as the first speaker- related relevant sections to the respective speakers
Hooked by asking rhetorical questions
God use of gestures
Clear slides- phrases were kept short
Clear explanations provided
Showed ownership of material
Animated delivery
Good voice modulation
Very clear and audible
Fair transition to next speaker
Helped team-mates
Made a good introduction to the Q&A for the group. Ended on a high note by asking the audience a question
Knowledgeable answer during Q&A; very open to audience and takes the audience seriously.

 School just started 1 week ago, technically 1 week and 1 day ago. Classes are fun, lab's busy and everything going on! =D

Xavier just got his list of Christmas presents he wants to get for himself. But of course, if anybody wants to get it for me, I don't mind and I'd gladly accept it of definitely. Without rejection..

1). iPod Shuffle for marathon
2). A new phone, probably an iPhone
3). A Gucci sling bag/wallet
4). A new pair of sleek Oakley sunglasses
5). A car!
6). A new earpiece to replace my old one
7). If I can buy you, I'll buy you back. Whatever price I have to pay for.

YinTeng said that this blog is getting more and more like a funeral. So many sad posts and so emo.

Well of course. When so many things are happening at one time, so many SAD things are happening at one time, how can anyone post anything positive?

Well I cannot deny that there are some lighter things happening in life, school starts tomorrow. Mahjong has to stop (DARN!!!!!) and studying starts again.

GO MAN! Last semester to go. =DDD

有心作福莫迟疑,
求名清吉正当时。

此时必能成会合,
财宝自然喜相随

I was sorta afraid of what you were going to tell me? Something I do not want to hear, something I expected but acted in denial. But I guess I just have to face up to it and well, face it.

It wasn't pleasant, it wasn't cool. It doesn't feel right to be the kinda big guy who councils and helps despite feeling otherwise, but I thought that it was best like this. I held myself hard, I kept everything cool, hoping that nothing I do not want flows out. And I know I did a good job.

I told you things that I shouldn't have. But oh well, it doesn't matter anyways. I'm glad I told you actually, made me feel loads better.

I know you felt uncomfortable talking to me, I understand and I know why. But thank you, for trusting in me and opening up to me. It not only made you feel better by talking, it made me feel much better, knowing that we are at least still friends.

It was secret, it was dark. But everything's in light now. Which is better than before. Good that we're still talking.

"Take some time off for yourself, and face it. It would probably take a bit of time, but it's better than doing anything silly. You're a big person nw, a grown up. So please, think sensibly and don't do anything silly. I don't want another one."

The lunar 7th month ends tonight when the clock strikes 12. Well they say, that "it would rain on the last day of the 7th month",
when all departs from this world back to theirs,
when all our love ones that has parted bid farewell,
when all returns back to heaven…

I wonder, 80 years from now… Would there be anyone there to burn incense for me? Would there be anyone to mourn after my death?

Hmm, I wonder... once again

The landscape i see looking out the window is a gushing river.
Until the seasons change, i'll let it be.

You were closer than anyone else, and it made me unsettled.

Anyways, at that time I hadn't realize it,
I wouldn't not ever be able to see you again.

But I should not have said such horrible things to you.

If you were happy then,
I would never have said that it is ok.

Your heart was so mixed up then,

Either way your heart will be consumed by my love.

NUSRun wasn't exactly the best run that I've been for. But it certainly wasn't all that bad. Uphills and downhills, stairs stairs stairs. Through all these, it brought me somewhere where I know that I'll re-visit. I may not be able to drive up there, but it's somewhere I'll return to.

As I ran, the skies got heavy, the winds got strong. The weather got humid and the water droplets fell like god was crying (oh what a bad analogy). The flowers and leaves abscised from their nodes. Then it all came...

No matter how beautifully the flower blooms, how vibrant the colors become, it wouldn't live just because it wants to. It's more than just one factor that play its roles around the world.

Oh yes, my first 21km clock in: 16th August 2009, 5.30am, 2hrs 39mins...

Singapore Bay Run, Army Half Marathon is seriously NO JOKE! The first time I did anything more than 14km. No doubt my legs are sore to the max now, but I'm definitely going for the next marathons. My dream to cover more than what I can do.

Yellow Ribbon Run 10km
Mizuno Mt. Faber 10km
North Face 25km
Standard Chartered 42.195km

My aim, my dream. GO XAVIER!

As my iTune hits the songs from my "emo" playlist, it felt soft all of a sudden. When the heart draws itself back into my chest and when it pumps hardly, it felt.... painful.

Well it wasn't on purpose that it started playing songs from that particular playlist. It was just coincidental when it all started playing. Perhaps I'm tired, that's why it hit me so badly. But I made it worst by looking past into the photos I've kept since Secondary School. It felt nostalgic as the photos flowed past in a slide-show.

Some photos are so well taken that it captured not only memories at that particular moment in space and time, but the memories of whatever that had happened all these years. As to how we have changed and how we have progressed from a childish kid who chases each other around in the canteen to a grown up who drinks as if there is no tmr. Hmm, that is quite immature too i would say. But oh well, photos from secondary to poly life mixed into a world of my own.

I love my life, but i think it's getting so so far away... Too bloody far to reach soon.

18th July 2009 to 19th July 2009: Crazy Chalet

It was literally crazy crazy. Crazy with fun joy and laughter when a group of friends: Xavier, Bird, KianSoon, ShiYun, YinTeng, Christine and Joshua came together. They booked a chalet at East Coast Park, mahjong-ed and drank like there was no tomorrow. Photos were taken like memory in a memory stick was infinite and laughter could be heard as though everyone was deaf. =.="

When ShiYun drank to her limit, it got messy and crazier. Videos of puke, slaps and rough wrestle brought the night to an end with everybody feeling lethargic and weak.

Steamboat at Bugis made everybody look at us as if we were aliens that laughed that loudly (Right YinTeng?)

Pictionary/Cherades made was realized that we weren't exactly very smart with our body languages. Especially words like choir and worshipper.

The entire plan ended when we had to pack up the mess we created, drive ourselves home in a sleepy mood and carry on our lives as if these 2 days didn't exist for school work.

Oh sigh, 2 days of fun just ended and tomorrow is another day of being back to earth from heaven...


Yay to those who made these 2 joyable nights possible. Loves..

Went back to school at 2pm to study today before setting off to Orchard at 6pm.

While waiting for 2 late peeps to arrive, Mao's Long March + Coffee with a touch of peanut and a slash of chocolate at TCC totally made my day. Yes people, if you like peanut butter and coffee, you so have to try this out.

After much of a long wait, Wilfred and Kiansoon finally arrived. It's been 2 years since we've met up. And it loads to catch up, so little time. Sigh, but well well, time well spent. =D


Hey Wil, thanks for meeting up today. We've still got so much to catch up. Meet some time out yeap? =D

Today's another 10click clocked in my total mileage.

Mizuno Mt. Faber Vgo Run

Participants: Mr. Sng Chin Seng, Mr. Dennis Yap, Sng Yi Xiong (THAT'S ME!), Kwek Xian Hong, Tan Xuan Hui, Mok Ai Xia and Christine Teo

Uphill, Downhill, Flat-road, Uphill, Downhill and Flat-road once again. Felt great today. Perfect Weather, perfect terrain, perfect perfect perfect. Second run of the month and that's 20km in total.

Upcoming run I aimed for is Army Half-Marathon. Well that's 21km, which means I need tights! And training!

Jogging anyone?

I'm glad that we are talking. That it went from an aggressive me to a calm calm me. That it went from an illogical you to a listening you. It took compromising, it took time, it took effort. And I'm glad it all went well.

All my "experiments" were wrong of me, and I know I should not "experiment" on you. It was in-ethical and immoral of me. I'm sorry.

Let's just hope for the best now...

Summer, autumn, winter, spring

A common misconception of many people is: Summer is the first of all seasons, that Summer comes first. But that is not the case from my point of view.

The start of the season: Spring. Where flowers bloom, leaves green and fruits mature. Where the start of life begins for many after the bitter cold of winter. A new beginning for all.

The next step of life: Summer. The heat comes in, flowers struggle to survive, fruits dry and leaves crumples. Where the problem of drought begins for people. Where everybody sees it suffer.

Soon after: Autumn. As the flower wilts, people cry. As leaves fall and dies, everybody stands and watch, helpless. Where people stops and see the bare old tree turns from a lavish green to a stalk of wood. It is at this point where people regret about their lives, helpless once again.

Last but not least: Winter. The bitter wind, the cries of dogs and the howl of wolves. Time to cry, time for hugs, time to rest for the next season.

As the season changes from one to another, life is reflected in the change. The 4 season that repeats one after the other is part and parcel of life. Where people enjoy, quarrel, regret and cries- a vicious cycle. Life is so typical, so why ponder even ponder it? Stopping at one stage in life is delaying the start of the next.

Move on when it's time people. Hanging by the line would not safe your life. It is by moving on do we see mountains and oceans beyond our view.





I dedicate this post to you: My friend in need, my friend who's been there. My best friend- you.

"Not in the mood" is not an excuse to not turn up for a FYP meeting. Although, I don't think that is the reason why you ain't here: You didn't do your work, you don't even know what you're suppose to do, you ain't bothered to ask, I ain't bothered to tell.

Please man, if you ain't bothered, let me know now. This is the 2nd time you're absent from meeting WITHOUT a proper excuse or what so ever. If you ain't interested, let me know now. At least I can take your job, you can take another year in Poly doing your FYP. 'cos I can't be bothered to wait until the last minute before you submit yourself to failure.



I though I would have a chance, but i beg to differ now.